You know for me I don't think it is that I don't feel like a good patient. I think its that I still don't feel normal. I have this image in my head of a healthy person, who when they see, hear, or remember their own abuse they feel empathy and compassion and aren't afraid to show/share how sad it makes them.

Interestingly, when I first started posting on PC Perna, Sunrise, Miss C, occasionally Sky and many others would constantly challenge my idea of "normal". I get this perception error now, but sometimes I still slip. I know I can be healthy, fully human, and be ready to move on without ever crying in the presence of my T.there are other ways to express sadness. I just want to know I can cry..if I feel like it.