T FINALLY called and set a time with me tomorrow evening - weather permitting. I also went to the community dinner tonight (t is often there and leads this gathering) and several things happened. 1. i was late and sadly very obvious *sigh*. 2. we had to go around and say who our support will be during the holidays **sigh**. 3. i realized that i have no one IRL and thought about saying "My online group" but i started choking up and when my turn came i said "I'm still working on that". 4. Soon after that, I went and hid to go get a grip!! 5. T was sitting only 2 chairs away from me at the table, I was trying hard to ignore her. Then trying hard to look like nothing was wrong... soon reverting back to ignoring her. 6. After dinner T came and sat across from me and we connected . she asked how I was - "not so hot" and we talked a bit. We also got interrupted and my mind was screaming to the ppl "GO AWAY! Can't you see my T is talking to ME??!?!?!" *ahem* then we talked more and she assured me that I would not lose out next week due to my apnt being on Christmas eve =) . 7. was talking with another clinician when T walked in to get the keys - and patted me on the back several times This made up for my earlier encounters with the front desk telling me there were no times this week or next week for me. *whew*!!!
Now, the weather had just BETTER let me get there tomorrow!!! I already missed once from that.
=) kiya