Hello All, New to this so here it goes. Been with my Fiance for 3 years now and we've been through everything a relationship can go through. And still we've always managed to keep it together and never give up and let go. She has a son 5 and i have a daughter 8. We live seperately but are together all the time. The majority of the problems we have had stem from my moods, attitude, and just over all not communicating my feelings and holding them inside. I've seeked help in the past and took meds for mild depression for about a year but stopped because i realized nothing changed really long term that is was more my attitude and lack of communication. I change how I do things and communicate and it lasts for a few months at a time then i seem to get comfortable or just not as motivated to recognize that I need to step it up and we sink back into what seems to be the end for us. This has repeated over and over and I really need to get a grip on my situation because she is the best thing that has entered my life since my daughter and I do not want to lose her. I dont like who I am today, compared to who i was quite some time ago.. i know my faults, and want to be free from this silence that i resort, and the sinking into myself with no energy or motivation, and be able to commuicate my feelings better, and really show her that i am the man she fell in love with, and not just someone who is tearing her apart emotionally.

so much to get into but here's the basic... I grew up in a home where everyone kinda kept to themselves, didnt communicate. My mom had pscitzophrenia, so i grew up through all that around me, my dad is quiet and i get that from him. and I just want to break this that has been holding me back. for her, my daughter and myself. To become the man I know i am, and have been in the past. I've started by looking for help on this site and want to make sure i dont fall back this time... any suggestions? advice?

Thx.