Sled Chick,
May I ask what you consider regular routes?
AA or NA meetings?
One of the most important things about our meetings is confidentiality is honored...

Are there towns close enough so you could attend meetings there? If that's the way you would need to start, then do it. The most important thing is that you take that step and go...

If your community is that small, isn't there already the possibility that people are aware there is a problem?
Sometimes we think others are not aware of our problem because we think we hide it so well--in reality, they usually already know.

I salute your courage in sharing with us. Thank you!
My own experience was that I could not do it alone; I needed the support and fellowship found only through the meetings.

My way doesn't have to be your way...you can always try it alone first and see what happens...if you decide you want to try the meetings, then go.

At the very least, please continue posting here. Sharing helps you and it helps us. Many times when you write about things that are happening and how you are feeling is when you gain insight...
There are many good posts here that you can read through to get a general understanding about problem drinking.

One last thought...you shared that it caused problems only a few times a year. Please be aware that stopping drinking or drugging may cause some withdrawal symptoms...especially if it's from long term usage.

We care,
Cap