Short and to the point, I had a one night stand with an old classmate during the planning of a hs reunion. We are both married, he (of course) said he was unhappy with his sex life, I was unhappy in every area but that. He said things that made me feel good and things went to far. My husband found out. It's been 9 months since that happened. I'm not sure what to do now. My husband has been on an emotional rollercoaster (understandably) I don't know what he wants from me. I've asked he says I have the best opportunity to keep a free life of having men over anytime I want. He works 2 hours away traveling everyday working the afternoon shift so I am in bed when he gets home and gone before he wakes up. We have 2 kids 8-6. I am so depressed and upset over what I have done, but I don't know how to make things better. He of course doesn't trust me. Won't do counseling. Any suggustions?