Coconut, I hope you were able to find the words to express what you feel. If you decided not to send a card, that's OK too. You can always work in session on being able to speak from your heart directly to your T. It needn't take a card, but I do think a card can be a very heartfelt gesture.

I have been with my T for 3 Christmases now. I have never sent him a holiday card, but I did yesterday! I have not actually sent holiday cards to anyone for at least 5 years, and I am coming out of my shell this year and sending a few. It's actually a big deal to me as I think it is one sign I am getting back to "normal" in life. So I decided yesterday to send cards not only to my standard friends and family but to many of those who have helped me this year. I tried to write something meaningful and from the heart in each of those cards. T was included in this. I wrote a few sentences of what it has meant to have him with me on this journey, and I signed it with my name and a heart. I won't see him again until after he has received it. I am not worried about what he will think. He will know it is heartfelt. I do not expect we will talk about it.