Hello,

I am an alcoholic. Yes, I do still drink, I don't want to drink. I have set a date and will have an Alcohol and Drug assesment on Dec. 30th. I am terrified. Alcohol in my mind makes me normal, makes me feel. I also recently found out I am Bipolar. But, the soonest the doc can see me to start me on meds is Feb. 4th. I am scared of it all. Because, the drinking helps me to control my racing. Or at least that is what I tell myself. I dunno know where to begin with all this nor do I know how it will all end. I just know, I do want to be sober and feel better.