For about a year I've really wanted to be a female, some say its my age (18) but as my therapist and I have discussed my sexual needs I find myself wanting to be with women as a woman, my T doesn't know (but she will next session) that I want to be the opposing gender, but I do and I've come to conclude that, I cry about it, and it hurts, It all came about when I discovered porn and discovered transvestites or in porn "shemale" are they real like in porn or in real life are they different? I'm so scared I brought this up I may offend someone please don't take it that way....questions, concerns, ? I dont know what to do....help....