i just want to give up.

nothings worth it anymore...i tried asking my family for help, i say i want back on meds, they don't understand, they just pass it off as a bad mood.

I would have to kill myself before they understood that i need help. hurting myself seems like a good idea right now, i don't want to fall back into habits, but i just can't take it right now, or anymore. i want to be dead, nothings working anymore.

I tried to talk to the doctors (which my boyfriend doesnt know about) they just said you could be having a bad day - the situation seems helpless...i want out of this, i want to be happy, but there's no point in trying when everyone else doesn't believe you!!!

please listen to me and believe me, it's all so pointless, there is no point in going on if im not happy, and no one is willing to help me anymore.