OK I will tell you what brought me here. This problem is a 10 year problem and a couple of days ago, I got sick. I have a sinus infection which puts partying on hold. Now I am really sick. My head aches, i'm throwing up and i hurt all over. I assume it is withdrawl...from which drug, I don't know. I like to go fast and I've been sleeping for two days. Meetings here are out. My friend went to one and knew everybody there. Even if I drive 80 miles to the city, people from here attend there. My doc will prescribe attivan if I want. Hubby brought me morphine today to "cheer" me up. LOL. I'm afraid I'm on my own with this. Hubby knows there's a problem and everyday he says "no more. That was garbage" but we only last 2 days till we forget that it was garbage and like fools we go back for more.sigh...