I have found that since i've accepted the job, i feel like my life is at least rolling forward now instead of sitting in stagnation. Working in a part time evening job i have no intention of staying for long in has really given me impetus to think about what i want to start doing in life and what kind of job/career i should be choosing for my future. Much better than sitting around and being unemployed imo. Though it does come with much existential and social anxiety.

I have been in an occupational rehabilitation program for about a month now to choose what i wanted to do in my work life, and the plan we drew up was to get a regular job now, and then also do some study at the same time so i can build a career or at least a plan for myself.(i'm thinking maybe speech pathologist, locksmith, or audiologist) So this is all part of the plan, i don't know why i resisted it so much.

Also happy to report that i've found out that the pay is really good and the conditions also, and i only have to work part time which is great cos i've been out of work for a year with anxiety problems and probably couldn't do full time right now.

Cheers guys.

Tin.