Thank you

Yeah i will, i have been trying to...writing it down and trying to memorise it.

When i spoke to him over the phone, i tried to tell him i wanted to speak with him in person but he kept saying to tell me now your freaking me out. I didn't say what i wanted to. He caught me on the spot, i needed time to work out what i wanted to say. This time i will.

Ive got nothing to loose by being completly honest with him really. I can't think of anything else. is always on my mind. making me sick.

Even if he just wants a friendsship, thats ok, but im not sticking around for a friendship to be treated this way... done it before, not again. lol

and the thing is, he asked for a VERY big favor (to borrow money), yes im stupid right! lol. But i care too much about him i guess and he told me that he was threatened about an old debt. He might have got me hook line an sinker with that ! lol. I made it legal, so hes gona pay it back, but coz of that, i can't just get him out of my life! lol.

I guess, i'd do anything for a friend, but tend to get walked over/used to often and i think if thats what he's doing to me, im never going to be able to trust anyone again.....................