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Thank you everybody!
I do try to talk myself down by reminding myself that it’s not my ex abusing me; it’s my mom who loves me. Doesn't work. Frustrating!!It's been 3 years for gosh sakes!
I was seeing a therapist while with my ex, and kept seeing this T for these 3 years after the breakup, then I moved across the country to live with my mom. I know my old T and I talked about it, so I don’t understand why I am still not over it and why my ex is still messing with my head--in many other ways, too.
I started with a new T 3months ago, right when I moved in with my mom. Just for general help with my bipolar & OCD.
When I told my T about my reaction to my mom's yelling, he said the same thing, Sannah—sounds you are enmeshed. He asked me if he could meet with my mom (alone!). He said he wouldn’t want to do it if it was going to effect my therapuric relationship with him and asked me to think about it.
I don't know if I should?????
But since I originally posted, I remembered that she DID do this when I was a kid. About once a month she would scream and slap my face for no reason and always promised to never do it again. But she always did it again. Which makes me think that her recent behavior isn’t going to stop, just because she promised me she wouldn’t do it again.
So, I’d better learn some coping skills, since I’ll be living with her for a very long time. (very willingly living with her, in all other respects she is great!).
Good news though—My mom has since told me that she called her doctor and is getting a med adjustment. So, I feel good about that.
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