dear ones,

in 2004 i had a spiritual awakening.i was practicing Kundalini yoga and
meditation. a guru predicted i would become enlightened. i was also
experieniencing for the first time, a full blown manic episode.

well, i did not become enlightened. i was kicked out of a Kundalini yoga
group(i was crazy manic).

well, i stopped the yoga and meditation. but i lost my faith. i have a lot of
anger towards God. i thought for the first time in my life that i finally found the answers to life´s most challenges.

now i have nothing.my family will not allow any yoga or gurus.

i now do not know the meaning or purpose of my life..

thanks for listening.

light and love,
nirmal