Bama….
Meetings are a good thing, but working the steps like your life depends on it is where the real relief from the cravings comes from. You are working the steps?
As for bothering someone, just like when Starbright and you share with each other, you feel better about you, so do the people on your list. The same list you are going to expand on. Get more numbers, use them. You know what to do. Do it.

Bama, I keep looking for you but don’t see you.

http://www.sober24.com/SoberPost/default.asp
Here is a bunch of people just like you sitting in front of their computers at 2 in the morning looking for someone just like you. Make yourself available to them. They will benefit, and so will you.

I quote…“I feel so weak. I feel so alone. I feel so suffocated. Loneliness Consumes Me...”
How long do you think you can go on like this?
Baby, you’re breaking my heart.
you are in that hard place where you feel like there is no good point left on your compass, it’s not true.
Do the next right thing, get out of yourself, and into the solution. Go be of help to someone else. They need what you have, and you need them.

God helps those who help themselves, Into action.

Richard