Here is the question i submitted to "ask a therapist" so you can read it as well. Since i am 100% real and truthful, you may feel uncomfortable reading this:

I was born with severe torture depression which i experienced by whole life. I never have had experienced a break from torture before. Torture is constant and unending.

Ive never held a job before, if i try a job, i lie down on the floor of the job from severe torture. I got Fs in school, torture didnt allow me to do any school work. I am completely dysfunctional and my life is destroyed and 100% hopeless. I cannot even focus enough to drive a car and my home is a mess. All i do all day is shake, pace, lie down and beg for torture to end.

I had 10 doctors and over 35 medications in the past 12 years, also "talk therapy" and alternative "treatments" Nothing has any effect whatsoever on life long torture. ECT has no effect on torture, just side effects. Life is constant pain and suffering, and 100% worthless with no purpose. All i feel is pain and suffering, where thousands of things tried have no effect whatsoever, including doctors, medications, supplements, hypnosis, meditation, exercise, and much more. There is no treatment for my torture, everything was tried, nothing has any effect on severe constant life long torture of agony and suffering. I hate life, which is constant suffering and nothing more.

What should i do?