Hi Skeksi,

Yes I do still . I have cut off reactions that hit me like a mac truck . I don't get them often. I had an incident happen two weeks ago on the phone and the person depersonalized me accused me something I wasn't doing and hung up on me.

It sent me right back into a regressive place as a child again. I believe anger is also normal after crying.

Due to the day in and day out emotional and less frequent physical and sexual trauma ( .The last of it being when I was 32 ) I place myself In the CPSTD range. I have a handel on most of it . I cry more now out of just the tiredness of it being so long a journey . I still get those out of the corner of my eye flash backs where certain movements men make trigger the past events. Its difficult sitting in Barnes and Nobel reading and haveing that happen.

I do startle easily But no longer cry . I had a car accident years ago which triggered my symptoms . It was like It jared open a door to a freezer. I would cry and cry when For 14 years prior I never shed a tear.

I still have reactions if I think someone may be making fun of me . My first instict is momentairy paralsis then a withdrawl and then a promise to myself to never go near the person or persons again.

Protection. If I have missread the situation it can have an unnessesary negative effect on an innocent party.

Part of the package unfortunately.

Be gental with yourself.

Patricia