((Christina))) i was going to post this elsewhere but i realized it fits your thread also, so i hope its ok to drop in here..

ive been thinking about this thing recovery, and the motivation to follow through with it completely... ive heard it said that we all have a cross to bear..

so i came here in the middle of the night, from my moms house, wearing three layers of warm undershirts, wondering when i will ever be able to really break free of the cycle of non health, and i never know when or if i'll have the chance to speak with all of you again...

ive come here to unburden my story because of motivation.. i looked around one day and only heard bad news, only saw tears, only felt pain, and felt time slipping away...

i began to think of all i had accomplished in life, what it amounted to, what i had to take to the unknown when it was my turn to go...

its been said that a person has only their reputation in life and as i counted the deeds of my past i knew in my soul that i had done less than i wanted in this world.. many obstacles had stood in my path...

the tears of children motivated me...

we all carry a burden, our weight, some call it our life calling... sometimes we may need to live long enough to discover what that duty is to be... we must travel and stumble and learn from the mistakes and find truths to share with our fellow travelers and so unburden or packs..

the story of my life, how weak and pitiful it may appear to some, is my gift to my only son.. never give up, and take care of your mom

may you always walk in love ..