I once did not have faith and it lead me to an awful place a place of isolation, we are responsible for our own fate not some entity that you can blame when things are going bad and love when things are going good. Being responsible for your own happiness as you are the only one that knows what you need. Reach inside your self we all have that potential to be happy and inturn your happiness will shine on to other people. I am not allowed to talk about my religion but the one I have found helps me to polish my self everyday so I can make someone elses life happy. When you are happy everyone else is too. all the best in your journey and may you find happiness. Take care.