well, you've made a good start by coming here. Here you will find that you are not alone. There are others with similar experiences as you. Hopefully that gives you some courage to continue on. What you're going through sounds horrific. If it were me I would continue with a therapist, looking until i found one that was a right match for me and pray that that will eventually help. It took me eight plus years of therapy to overcome anorexia and bulimia so sometimes it just takes a while. Whatever you do don't give up. I'll be praying for you.

Love and Hugs,
Tara