Hello Moonkin,

I'm sorry I have no advice, but maybe you would want to read about Amanda Lepore. Another article that might be interesting to you is about Jeffree Star.

Shemales I'm not so sure about, I think that is just a term used in the porn industry where the individuals do not go through a sex change, but dress as female. I'm not sure if that is the same as transvestite.

I'm sorry I can't offer anything else. I wish I could. I hope you can explore this further with your therapist and s/he is understanding of your feelings.

Hugs if you want them.