It has been a dark time for me recently but i thought i was getting through it - I AM GETTING THROUGH THIS - then someone i get on with really well was talking to me - we were just chatting and I thought I wonder what she will think of me when im not here - i will miss talking with her - that came out of nowhere - I was not feeling down - it shocked me - i pushed the thought aside - stamped on it and put it through the shredder!!!!!!!!!!!

i know i am still close to the edge but have no conscious thoughts along that line - has anyone else felt like this - am I just going crazier than I already am? I just dont understand - I am seeing my T on Tuesday - I dont know whether to tell her or not - I am holding my own at the moment - I am strong and I can do this - i know i can - its only 2 days til i see her and i dont know what to do...................... how do you trust yourself when strange thoughts come out of the blue like that - and if you cant trust yourself.... who can you trust? i think it was just a momentary thing - a glitch in the system..... im hoping it was.... so do i tell or just let it go (yeah right like im good at doing that LOL)