Thanks for ypur answers guys. I am still hanging in there. Managed to wrap a few presents today but still feel pretty crappy. To answer a few questions. I am extremely shy...except for when I play sax or keyboards on stage. I have been reading this forum for a year befpre I joined. So I can't see me getting very far in a group setting. Does my hubby use?...We have been married 28 years . We have both been using for ten years but he is way more carefull than me as he has heart problems. He's pretty grumpy yesterday and today though. He will not do anything without me so he's suffering a little too. He is normally a big teddy bear but today is not a good day. I even feel stupid sitting here writing to people I have never met...and telling them stuff I have never even told myself. But if I go join hubby in the living room at thios time of the day, he's going to start expressing his boredom and what could we do??? Eventually it will come down to " Do you want to go for a drive" And we all know where that would be to. sigh....