I have ADD/OCD and it's a joy. I take stimulants and sedatives. When I get stressed and my OCD flares, I have to take fewer stimulants because it makes me more anxious and I start experiencing paranoia (not the delusional type). So, after I go through a stressful time, my body gets exhausted and I have NO energy and the stimulants help only a little. Then I am totally disorganized (ADD) and have to fight to get the energy to pick up the pieces. It's a joy, no doubt. I lose everything that I touch and get so frustrated about it. I'm learning to try to accept myself as I am because I am now in a work environment where others accept me. I sometimes have the awesome creativity often linked with ADD and often have the analytic/intellectualization skills that can be a part of OCD. These strengths, though, are not ones that are readily seen. People have to really know me and look beyond my disorganization/lack of time managment skills/lack of motivation to see my strengths. I feel for you. . .