Hi Sled,

Just found your thread. I'm really gonna try not to sound to harsh, but its probably gonna be harsh lol. Just remember that anything a recovering person tells you is just out of love, and reaching out to others keeps us sober.

I don't know how many peopele on here have said they were in too small a town to go to meetings, or family had no idea there was a problem or blah blah blah. Excuses kill. If you do have a problem, and I can't say yes or no, however "normies" don't usually question.....if you do, this is a DEADLY disease.

When I first got sober, the oldtimers would say the longer we stay the more bodies we'll walk over. I thought I was immune until aout two months ago. My friend Wally was found dead in his home by his own father. He was my best friend's cousin, who is sober along with me. We tried to telp him, he came to meetings and made excuse after excuse.

Finally his body gave out. You'd think liver right? Nope....his drinking and using enlarged his heart and he was vomiting so hard from drinking his heart basically exploded. He He was thirty three.

I share that because so many people don't realize that what we suffer from is deadly. Its cunning and its baffling and its powerful and its patient. My disease is just waiting for me to to be weak so it can try to kill me. So many sayings in the program, one of which is that addiction is the only disease that tries to tell us we don't have a problem.

I spol oops typo, sorry using a talking computer. I spoke at a rehab last night and this girl was talking about how when she goes back home to Chicago she'll have a hard time going to meetings for much of the same things you listed. So you see, that excuse can be made even in large cities.

Keep making excuses and stay sick.....people in meetings are there for themselves, and we tend to think of ourselves, as selfish alcoholics and addicts. If I had tryied to do it alone I'd be drunk or dead. A girl asked me at the meeting last night asked how I did it without rehab and I told her its the fellowship. I didn't do it alone. I got sober here on the boards too. I went from the forum drunk chic to a moderator. Wen't blind seven months ago so I just got back here with my talking computer. Haven't drank or used in over three and a half years.

Its possible, if you're willing and really want sobriety.

Hope I didn't make ou hate e lol.

Rayna