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Originally Posted by phoenix7
It has been a dark time for me recently but i thought i was getting through it -
then someone i get on with really well was talking to me - we were just chatting
and I thought I wonder what she will think of me when im not here - i will miss talking with her - that came out of nowhere -
I was not feeling down - it shocked me - i pushed the thought aside - stamped on it and put it through the shredder!!!!!!!!!!!
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Hi Pheonix ,
Yes I have had this same senario happen, And it frequently is followed with tears when I let myself follow the thought . Don't set it aside or put it through the shreader . It arose to the surface because because....
Your dealing with a trauma load . It can be lonely. Its no picnic while your at one or listening to just the chatter of someone who may not have experienced the kind of trauma you have . They may have their own loads and have moved through thiers and are prancing through thier lives. Of course a thought of wondering if they will miss you when your gone would arise . You need them to be there and liten to you now.you need them to care, to be aware of whats going on with you.
Your a strong woman to be able to listen to others while having to hold all this stuff inside . Honour your grief process . Allow yourself to be sad for your loss what ever it is. You'll be okay . just keep sharing. And yes tell your T.
Patricia