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Mary, we have found that allowing the host to rest and at the same time watching is very time consuming and difficult at best. But we found that if we put Yahna to sleep in her inside room, we are able to be out and aware so things don't happen to us while the body is resting. We put the twins and our big protector out front so we can relax...not sleep, but relax enough to feel better. And yes, the fear is always there, and will be for a long time...it seems that that is something we are destined for and can't change, at least right now...but we are trying to know that fear is just an emotion, neither good nor bad...and we try to let it rest at that...we don't do very well at that, but have, for small moments, been able to feel the fear subside a little bit and we are so thankful for that time...
we are always here for you and bead too...I am glad that you know we have trod the very similar path that you find yourself in right now...and anything we can do for you just let us know...safe hugs and comfort for you today. Crys
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