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Old Dec 21, 2008, 04:01 PM
skymonk skymonk is offline
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Location: Portland, OR
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MINI,
Sounds like you live where I do-I say where I'm from on my name box. I hate this snow! I lived in Arizona for 12years&got spoiled-never having plans canceled because it snowed,etc. My parents are getting older&sicker, but I'm not going to be there for them-that's my way of dealing with what they did to me. Our society puts a lot of guilt on us when we don't have positive things to say about our folks or don't have the mental strength to take care of them when they're old&sick. I don't have that mental strength. Maybe someday...but I'm 40&this has been the year of remembering like a flood or an exploding volcano a lot of crap that I'd really not like to have ever remembered. I have a t&plan to get a 2nd one in 2009. The one I have now isn't helping enough-maybe if I have a team like you do I could get through this better. I like the blanket&teddy bear idea. I've always carried around&slept with stuffed animals&they are a comfort. I don't care how old I am, if they make me feel better or better able to cope, I have them nearby.
Hang in there, you know we're always here&you've got your t's&your blanket&teddy. It's OK to feel what you feel-it's better to feel it than to stuff it, no matter how much it hurts at first-it will lessen with time. That dang 4 letter word...time. Bleh!
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I am a 39 year old female that is diagnosed with bipolar disorder,anxiety disorder and post traumatic stress syndome. I'm on disability and often have no one to talk to when I'm not feeling so good. So please contact me if you'd like to talk or share or vent. I'm listening!