sil'andscared  please excuse me for not knowing but have you connected up with some kind of alcohol support group or a 12 step recovery program? IMHO, that is the only way i could have gotten or stayed sober. i was married to a functional alcoholic and he was not supportive of my getting sober. he kept beer in the house. had i not had a good support group i know i could not have been able to stay sober. i eventually divorced....he wanted me to stay his "drinking partner",as we say.
i hope you will not try to go this process alone. it is sooo hard and getting/staying sober is challenging without the aloneness too.
keep us posted on how you're doing...the holidays are sometimes a stressor just all by itself.
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