Last night my 15yr old daughter suddenly said at 7.30 that her boyfriend wants her to go meet him at the station as he was on his way round...just a simple thing, but I begun to feel terror, why now, why suddenly has he decided to come around, why does he want her to meet him half way, is a gang after him? will they then seek revenge against my daughter for being his girlfriend...I found myself listening to what they were saying when he arrived...my stomach and heart in turmoil....I went to work this morning feeling in a very bad place, a place where you are fighting for survial and nothing in the world around you is visible, only your fear...

I came home from work early because I couldnt continue and my daughter woke up and come down stairs and I started questioning her. She screwed her browl up and said, mum james just came around, what do you mean you heard me say, "what you going to do about it?" she said you sure you never dreamt it? I said, you sure his not in trouble? no ones after him? she looked at me even more confused and said "no mum, you must have dreamt it" I didnt dream it, but I know I was feeling it.

This has happened before and T says its coming from inside me...but I believed it, it scared me, and now its like, well ok, perhaps this time is ok, but what about next time, SIGH!!!

Does this happen to anyone else? you imagine something awful, but what triggered it? I dont know...I use to think this daugther was anorexic when there was no evidence to prove it, T said, why do you think she is? I said, I dunno I just think it, and I use to check the bin after dinner to see if she had thrown it away...am I Mad? I don;t like this, what is it.