this is a very difficult situation for you to be in and you sound very sensitive, level headed and safe as well to me ... you are healthy to direct your feelings this way, by sharing with others and looking for all means of support for yourself and loved ones... nightmarish realities do occur and inner strength is so very helpful.. we can gather strength and the ability to heal from our caring community members.. we can rely on a spirit of hope if we are able to maintain that within ourselves and in times of faltering will, the assistance of sensitive people will be at your door, i pray to all that is good.. i pray you will have no difficulty finding the expert help you will need on this matter... truly it is a contest of all your inner will and belief now.. you can and with fierce determination, make it through this difficult time... allow yourself to receive the benefit of others kind and caring thoughts for you... together understandings develop. thank you for allowing my reply and i will be praying for everyones health if thats ok