Zen, I'm really proud of your strength. I know you'll make it through, and not allow the problems with your job and your husband to overwhelm you. I think, in addition to consulting your T, you should have a little heart-to-heart with your husband. I know how hard it is to control how upset you must be, and how worried you've been about your man. So I really think you should let your husband know that his behaviour is unacceptable to you. It's not all right for him to be out that late if it upsets you that badly, Zen--and he needs to understand that his coming home at a reasonable hour is important to you. He should respect that. I'm sure that you both can reach a compromise if you talk it out.

Hang in there. I hope you feel better soon.

Take care,

~Alexiel