Yes what you described it me exactly but I feel really bad for saying that he abandoned me because he is with his wife having surgery for cancer and I know his family comes first but it HURTS so bad...........dieing on the inside YES that is it....boy I it feels good to know others know what I am feeling...that I am not selfish and not crazy and not SICK.......
My Physctrist has upped my meds for the next couple of weeks to help me with the anxiety. She told me I can talk to her while my T is away BUT NO WAY she is NOT one I can talk too NOT AT ALL ....she does NOT have good therapy side to her she is good for meds but that is it.
I guess I should be grateful because compared to most here I do have a pillow from his office and I do have a picture of him from when I was in the hospital last because in there they would not let me have the pillow so I got a picture to help me through. So right now I have them both...and I also have a tape of him reading bible verses so I can hear his voice....so what am I complaining about huh? I feel so SELFISH....
so sorry for complaining