Hi Auroralso, Seeker1950 & Muffy

Thank you for your kind words

Yeah. Learned a lesson the hard way.

I did not think someone could be this cruel.

Well, no there was no actual 'commitment'. He lead me on tho, he said everythign that i wanted to hear. he gave me the wrong impression. He told one of his old work mates i was his girlfriend pretty much when i was there. He probably said it coz it would have been awkward, but he should have cleared that up. He said he wanted to take this slow. thats it. even tho the sex happened quickly. i was so ****ing naieve!

If he lost interest, fine, BUT why string me along. He was still making plans with me. but backed out. still saying little things to me that made me so confused.

When we spoke a few weeks ago, we seemed to agree to be friends. Then he mentions we can still have sex - red flag right?! we didnt tho .But he was still in touch with me. we haven't had sex again tho. i was ok with being friends. i was hurt he lead me on tho. he was just confusing me so much.

When i asked if i could talk to him i dont know he probably thought i wanted to talk about it again by saying "not this again lol". I didn't want to do what we were doing again, he was just CONFUSING me sooooo much. a lot of stuff that i haven't gone into on here. and with the fact i haven't been well.

I do believe he lead me on, AND in someways he talked me into/pressured me into sex. i was sooooo stupid. i trusted him and believed him too much. I had trust issues before and now... i dont know how to over come this....

Oh Auroralso - That story about your first, is shocking. Im sorry. Im hurt, but to have that, god. That is terrible. *hug!*

What kills me is that there was a great guy, no physical attraction for me there - at the time, but god. it makes think i made the wrong choice. He wouldn't do this.

oh, i wont be jumping into sex again...it kills me how it happened.
Im too nice. I get walked over. For people i do let in, i'd do anything, and thats where it comes back and bites me. people use and abuse. they are only in it for the own gain.

I dont know why part of me WANTS him to know. We haven't been "together" for a month. We've agreed to be friends during that time. And he HAS been in touch. I haven't spoken to him since sat tho. He says he cares (yeah right). I dont have any desire to be with him. Not now. And, i dont know about the friend thing anymore. i thought he was a ncie guy. how wrong could i be!

Is it really a bad idea to tell him? not all. of course. he doesn't think i think he's a complete jerk. But in one way i want him to know the hell he put me through. I would be brief in a way, not all the details. he may not care, or he may care to my face (i wont believe it now!) but...oh i dont know....! im so torn.

i dont know why, but i want to knock some sense into him so he might just htink he cant do this to people. if ur wanting just sex, thats cool - IF THE OTHER PERSON KNOWS IT. dont use. i hope he goes to hell.

not sure what to do yet lol.

thank you very much to all of you!