Bebe...hunny...did you say this was your first sexual relationship? I know how sensitive this is....You wanted it to be for love, and you put your heart into it. There really IS no closer bond between two people than the act of sex, yet many people are users.

You say you are still in contact with this man "as friends"...Blah, and Blah! He's not worthy of your friendship, and you're wasting your precious existence by continuing contact with him. He MAY have been having sex with others while he was intimate with you. That suggests to me that you should have yourself tested for STD's, including AIDS. Sorry, but this is the harsh reality of being with such a callous individual.

I'm going to tell you as straightforwardly as I can...This man is no good. He is a user...You, yourself, said you had been "played," and that is the truth. You will do yourself a great service to cease ALL communication and contact with him. He is not a friend.

I am not extending this advice to you as a righteous judge, but as one who has been there. How many times I have wished, in retrospect, that I had just walked away, without discussion. There is NO discussion, no friendship! You deserve better. PM me if you wish.
Love
Patty