I dont have many words today, I saw my T it was exhausting - i dealt with some things but was unable to deal with others because I felt i was not going to survive it - I know thats dumb - it was just an emotion - but i was so certain if i went any further it would swallow me whole so we stopped - next appt will be in 2 weeks hopefully.

will come back - but no more words left - sad and i dont know why..... I guess i thought it would get through this today and its still here - thankyou all