I left something for my T to read as I was leaving my session last week. I was too chicken to have him read it in front of me, and I wasn't ready to actually talk about it yet. I thought giving it to him on the way out would help me not to think too much between sessions, which has turned out to be true, but I am supposed to see him again tomorrow and am so anxious even thinking about talking about it. Part of this, I'm sure, is because I've never actually talked about this with anyone before. Part of it is probably because I don't entirely trust that whatever I have to say would be acceptable. I just feel so sad. Ugh.