Hello, I'm 17 years old and for about a year now have been very unhappy. I've wanted a girlfriend for a few ears now, but went for the whole wait until someone right came along thing. It drove me insane. I met various girls, but I never had the guts to tell them my feelings or ask them out. About a year ago I met this girl, we quickly became really good friends, I sort of fell for her. I know its dumb, but she was what I looked for in a girl in just about every way. I was finally happy. This carries on about a month until I decide to get the guts to ask her out, she denies me saying that she had a lot going on in her life. So I waited, still fueling myself with the hope I could be with her. Until another month goes by, I've become increasingly depressed over this girl until she finally tells me to stop liking her, because it bothers her that I have feelings for her and she doesn't. I decide to move along, since then I've tried it with about 7 or so other girls, all of which rejected me. All of them wanting to be "just friends", just like the first one. Lately life has seemed pretty worthless to me lately, I don't hate myself, just I try to tell myself I'll do fine with my life, but everything I try to improve at, school, relationships, family, seem to fail miserably. Every time I get rejected or fail at something I become a little more disappointed with myself. I'm starting to feel inhuman. All my friends hear about girls liking them why don't I? I'm pretty sociable and stuff, I'm kind of the class clown at my school. Still though, nothing, ever. Why? I also keep asking my friends for help, but worry their advice won't work and end up not taking it. The constant emotional distress has strained my relationships with my friends and has caused them less desire to be around me. Please help.
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