Moonkin,
I have been reading your posts and they break my heart, because i know the intensity and extreme emotions you are feeling. The adult you knows that you are getting out of control with your obsessive thoughts, but it's hard to fight. If you take a step back though, and think about it rationally it tends to help. Think of what you would say to someone you knew who was having the same feelings towards their T. You know she cares about you, and you know she will be back. Unfortunately, no matter how many times other people tell you that, you need to be the one to tell yourself that and BELIEVE it. Take care of yourself, do something you enjoy. Try to fight the obsessive thoughts that come to mind. when they come, stop them. say "No, T did not forget me. She cares, she's told me she cares. She will be back and i will forget this ever happened." you HAVE to talk to yourself. it sounds crazy, but it works. reassure yourself. Believe you will be ok. My T said that to me cause she is going away too. I know what your going through, i'm in the same boat. why don't you make something for your T to give to her when she gets back? You will be ok. Have the adult you take over.