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I don't know if the mother is stupid, or just not listening, but she still thinks we are going there for Christmas. I blew up at her the other day, because she was playing the victim role so well, and told her that she only wanted to pay for our teeth because it was HER that was embarrassed, not Myriam. She tried telling us that Myriam was embarrassed about my teeth, and I really ripped into her about that. Myriam accepts us as we are, loves us for us, not for what we look like, and then she tried throwing scripture...well...I told you that part...then we get a check in the mail for the bus tickets anyway...is she dense? Did she tune out when we said the buses were full and we couldn't get a ride on one? What the **** is the matter with her? Doesn't she get it at all??? What a ***** she is. Doesn't regard any of us as worthy of her love and affection. She has very conditional love. Very. And she blamed us for all the problems she was having with dad when we were teens, and almost got a divorce. She blamed US for the divorce thinking. Since when is a child the fault of getting a divorce? And then she said, as if we were just trash, if you get pregnant I WILL disown you. Now, I may be crazy, and I AM a *****, but she adopted us, and then was the #1 abuser. How is that supposed to be love??? She can give all our money over to our brother and his family. I don't need it, don't want it, and am better off without her in our life. All she does is continually slap us with condemnation and guilt. We just will never be good enough for her. She never should have adopted us, and we feel that she would have been better of not adopting at ALL. She already had one natural son. She should have been content with that. She treated him way better than she ever treated us. Gave him things, took him places that they said were going to take us, but they never did. Ever. I need to go. The call is strong. F*** her and what she did to us.
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True love exists when we lose ourselves to invest in the care of others.
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