(((monty)))
i'm sorry you're having such a rough time. i can relate, even though i don't have it even half as bad as you do, but time is also a blur for me too. i think it means that a lot is going on/changing and then happens something that's called "rapid-switching".
but keep on going... i agree with leslie & pixies & everyone here. seems like things can only go up.
good to have ya back!
please stay safe for us, for we care a lot, as you can see from the replies above too

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