Aw gee I KNOW what is meant by "there is never a good time" I live that too... because I keep denying that THIS IS my life now... and the "good time" doesn't really come, that was part of the past.

Sounds like a plan! Also, if you know some of the areas they will ask questions, TRY very hard TRY to write a sentence to READ back that has the good reply (unemotional) that you wish them to hear, and that they might need to have legally! This is difficult, I know. Is there someone who will help you formulate your statements in writing? Maybe you have said them here, and you can print out those posts?

You do the best you can with this, ok? Life isn't fair, but as long as we do the best we can, what more can be done? ...and we won't beat ourselves up afterwards nearly as much...