Welcome. I'm sorry that you're in a difficult situation.

When I finally got into therapy, it pretty much shook my world up. I could see what had been done to me with clearer eyes, and I could see how my current life was hurting me. A lot has changed over a couple of years because of that.

It's hard to realize you're in a hurtful relationship. I think it's wonderful that you are getting individual therapy while trying counseling with your husband. Perhaps by discussing what upsets him about the couples therapy, you will be able to see what is preventing him from seeking help with you?

It is hard to work on yourself without working on the relationship, and even harder if husband won't get in on it. I hope that you find some things that improve your situation.