thank you for taking the time to reply, michah. i'm sorry you've had a hard time with your bpd and childhood experiences, but i'm glad you're working through them and not letting it dictate your behaviour.

thank you for saying what you did. i have been feeling ambivalent about being angry at him, because i thought he could not control what he did. hearing your perspective and experiences has helped. i have only recently started going through my childhood experiences with my therapist, and so i guess it was inevitable that this stuff would be stirred up. i am going to let it sit for a while, and maybe talk it over with my doc in the new year.

thank you once again .