Thank you so much everyone! Its great to get such support. Im getting my fiance to join too, since he's not too sure how to help me and wants to learn more about whats going on with me (and that is now ALWAYS my womanly hormones!! )
Well, I wanted to ask some tips on dealing with flash backs. I believe I can hold out till march, but till then, are there any techniques on how to stop one self thinking back on horrible events? Mine is a gender related issue. Since the incident, I have gone from a gender equalist to an extreme feminist. I have days where I get so angry and think all men are dogs - of course you can see how this can effect my relationships! Whenever I experience sexism, even if it isnt directed at me, I go into super saiyan angry mode - I can hit walls, hurt myself, I get abusive towards my partner. Once I calm down I just cry and think how unfair it is I feel sooo weak!!! I want to just STOP myself reacting so badly and bringing up sensitive memories.

Thanks again and I hope everyone had a wonderful holiday season!