silver_queen, i hope that you won't cut.......i know you're tempted to and i understand that it's hard to not do...is there anyone that you can talk to? counselor at school? do you have enough $ that you could go to a therapist and your dad wouldn't know. it sounds like you really need to have an evaluation and then perhaps meds.....i'm so sorry that you're hurting now and i hope i've helped. i have to go to bed now..early work..but i'll be around tomorrow evening...xoxo pat