My sis and I had not communicated well for the upcoming Christmas. I felt hurt after each time I tried to talk to her and make plans, feeling foolish when I questioned her about exchanging gifts, getting together for dinner at her house (which we have always done in the past). All she would say was, "I'll let your know," then silence. I felt so foolish, like a school kid trying to be accepted. I had also told her that my daughter and her family would be here on Tues for their Christmas with me, and she said they "might" come to see them. In the meantime, she talked to our aunt and said she and her husband were planning on attending the family dinner on Christmas day and I could ride over there (2 hour drive) with them, and she was "so looking forward to seeing my twin grandsons." So, on Tues morning, sister called here to get information on the size my aunt's granddaugter wears, for a gift, and I said, enthusiastically, "Oh, I'll ride over there with you." Silence. I mentioned to her that the twins were here, and was she planning on a visit. Her response, "Oh, I forgot about that, and I'm too busy."
Forgive my long ramble about all of this. I know, in my attempt to wean of the Paxil, I'm more sensitive, but yesterday, one hour before her Christmas dinner, she called, and I didn't answer the phone. She called a couple of more times later in the day, and again I didn't answer the phone.
She called this morning, and I just said I wasn't feeling well, and not going to the dinner at my aunt's house. She tried to question me about this, also asking if I was home yesterday. I know I am probably wrong in my reaction, but I can't help it right now. My aunt called, she is so sweet, and I've probably alienated her also. I told her I simply couldn't tolerate being in close proximity to my sister right now.
This is so unlike me, but I have to tell you, I have always been the doormat. Yeah, so today was spent in my robe, watching tv and films and eating whatever was onhand here in the house.
I'm also experiencing a lot of "brain zaps" from this longterm attempt to get off the Paxil.
Patty