so I am OK. I am doing OK. The holidays are almost over. The light can come back. The snow storm is starting to melt. I am OK. I am having new flashbacks that take my vision and make me see green. I know its from the yucky thing and it scares me alot. I am afraid of being triggered so I am so watchful and on edge but I am not down for the count. Christmas was almost a disaster from the snow Storm but i managed to get presents for my kids at Walgreen's by walking in the flying snow...lol yea me. The snow triggered memories of Montana and stuff that happened in the snow like my mom not giving us coats and shoes that had holes and getting severe frost bite. Yucky. But i am OK. I am doing it. No pills nothing. My girls are happy. I pulled it off when everything seemed to stack up against me I did OK. Flashbacks snow storm triggers etc I did it. I am scared as heck that the flashback will come back the new one about green but I am not laying in bed defeated.