I was diagnosed with PTSD the end of last year due to a horrific childhood. I'm still in therapy. I was obviously in denial for many years, but managed to raise two beautiful, wonderful children who are now adults living productive lives. I've been married for 27 years now, and the last couple of years of my marriage have been horriable.

I've discovered that my husband is a very controlling, and that he has severe issues within him self that I'd never seen before. When I started withdrawling sexually while I was dealing with sexual abuse from my childhood he got angy and would throw temper tantrums until I'd give in to his wants.

Finally I told him that I was uncomfortable being intimate and told him that I was only doing it to fullfill his desires. His response was "Thank you, I appreciate it" and continued with his usual pushyness and temper tantrums. About three months ago we completely cut sex out of the picture and started marriage counseling (we we're sexual 1 time since). It has been a crazy roller coaster ride. He throws tantrums for sex. Threatens to leave me one day and then swears he'll change the next. This has went on for a couple of months now, and he thinks he's done nothing wrong.

I have soooo much resentment built up over his behavior these last couple of years.

No emotional support during the death of my Grandmother. No emotional support when I started having issues and didn't know what was going on. No support when I started therapy. He's done nothing but add to the stress and create more heartache. This is a man that I was madly in love with for soooo long, and now I see him as nothing but I inmature, selfish man who wants nothing but to use me like everybody else did when I was young. His oder has changed, he doesn't taste same, and his looks are completely different to me.

He says it's all the PTSD that has changed me, but I think that the PTSD has opened my eyes to something I've been blind to all these years.

We married when I was 16 I had no family except my Grandmother and Grandfather. He was my rescuer and I worshipped the ground he walked on for many years. I'd do anything he said and I never questioned anything. I had no outside friends just us. Now I see nothing but heartache with him. My therapist recommended the marriage counsling which my husband has been going to for about eight visits and he's ready to quite. He says therapy is a waste of good time and does nothing but messes your mind up.

My therapist who has spoken to my husband in a few sessions feels my husband is an emotionally abusive sex addict, and feels he has narcisitic (sp) tendencies. I posted more in the Relationship section if you'd like more background.

I hope this is the right section this time.

Thanks in advance for any suggestions, advice, or feedback.