due to lots of childhood abuse i struggled with the desire to die, but eventually i did realize the selfishness and cruelty that would have been in my death by suicide. i don't have the right to inflict my death on people who can't ever answer the questions i would have left behind.
michah, i am very sorry for this tragedy and burden. i can only guess at the feelings circling through your mind. please let us here be a support to you and by extension for your son.
i hope you will seek a grief/suicide support group for yourself and your son. Hugs and Sadness for you,
Leslie and her Pixies
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